The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.

You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.

People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.

The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.

Rumi

I spent a good part of my adult life waiting; waiting for support, guidance, improvements, help, or relief. I’ve waited for my husband to read my mind, my kids to do chores I haven’t asked them to do, and my friends to call me out of the blue. I’ve waited for my sister to help me with the burden of caregiving to my mom. I’ve waited to be invited to sing, speak, and teach. I’ve waited to be appreciated, recognized, and acknowledged.

I’ve done a lot of waiting.

And I used to believe this was the way things were done.

“When you undervalue what you do, the world will undervalue who you are.” ~ Oprah Winfrey

Often when we think about manifesting the good in our life, that includes getting to live our “calling,” and being appreciated for the work we do, and the gifts we share.

However, we may find ourselves facing a great deal of resistance when trying to share our gifts and talents! It just may seem as if no one could give a flying fig about what we have to offer!

“Because true belonging only happens when we present our authentic, imperfect selves to the world, our sense of belonging can never be greater than our level of self-acceptance.” ~ Brené Brown

I used to have a really hard time accepting myself. I thought my gifts and talents were just wishful thinking, and I was embarrassed to actually own up to those things I was just naturally good at for fear someone would see me for the miserable failure that I was. I never felt authentic because I was constantly trying to be better, and more acceptable.

“God gives some more than others because some accept more than others.” ~ Ernest Holmes

Oh boy! This used to be a really hard one for me to understand, because I thought being a good person, being a “spiritual” person, meant waiting for the Universe to just give me what I needed (or wanted). A good person doesn’t ask for things, right? Because that would be selfish.

Meanwhile, I’d see people around me accomplishing what I SOOOO wanted to accomplish! I couldn’t understand why the Universe would give to them, and not to me.

Why would It make things happen for one person, and not another?

Then one day my husband and I took our kids to this restaurant that is just a giant smorgasbord (you pick out your own food – as much as you want, whatever you want).

From the moment I taught my first class on metaphysics, I was determined to help anyone who crossed my path. Even if it meant cornering them at a dinner party, I was going to be of service, and cause transformation, whether they wanted it or not.

Then one day, as I had my next victim, I mean student, lined up in my sights, I noticed that she kept backing away from me, even as I kept stepping forward into her space, giving her my unsolicited, yet life-changing advice. I saw her eyes darting around trying to catch the attention of absolutely anyone who might rescue her from me, when I realized that I’d become that new age know-it-all that everyone avoided; I was the Fixer.

The Fixer is determined to be of service because they themselves need appreciation and accolades. The Fixer is not as far along on their spiritual path as they’d like everyone to believe, and helping others, and getting to feel good about it, make up for the good feelings that genuine transformation would bring. 

“I am only one, but I am still one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something. And because I cannot do everything I will not refuse to do the something that I can do.” ~ Helen Keller

There has been a lot of tragedy in our world. Every week there is sad news, heartache, and loss. And we feel these reverberations. We think about the Sundays we’ve spent sitting in church, or gone to movie theaters, concerts, or other special outdoor events. And we are almost at the point where if we didn’t personally know someone who died in a shooting, we know someone who does.

But recently I overheard someone saying that our world has gone to shit. And though at a glance it may seem that way, I have to disagree. I think there is a symptom that needs to be addressed, and highly conscious souls are being called forth to shine through these dark times.

Lugh was a Celtic god of many talents. He journeyed to Tara, where Nuada was king, and asked to become part of the court. However, the doorkeeper told Lugh that only a craftsman, someone with a special gift to offer the court, would be admitted.

Lugh told him that he was a skilled blacksmith. But they already had a blacksmith.

In our modern day, many people tend to believe that all thinking is done through the mind, and that the heart is the source of all experiences of heartache; that it’s the heart that lets us down, or guides us into situations that open us to the risks of disappointment, hurt and betrayal.

However, the ancients believed that the heart was not only the emotional center of our being, but that it was also in charge of the decision making process. And in yogic traditions it is considered the center for the internal guru.

The Heartmath Institute in Colorado, a facility dedicated to scientifically exploring the activities of the human heart, has discovered that the heart has its own intelligence, and the heart actually sends more information to the brain than the brain sends to the heart. And, a peaceful happy heart enhances the brain’s creativity and problem solving skills.

I’ve really been focused on learning the practical steps to peace so that I can embody peace, no matter what’s going on around me.

Let’s face it, things have been really hard. We are experiencing division and conflict more intensely than we ever have before! There is so much drama!

And guess what! This drama is all self-imposed. I know you don’t want to hear that – I sure didn’t! But it’s true. This is because we experience drama to the extent we feel disconnected from our Source.

The problem:

“What you seek is seeking you.” ~ Rumi

This is one of my favorite quotes because it reminds me of when I’m trying too hard to find that one perfect thing that will make life amazing.

We often think we are seeking something to make our life better:

The perfect partner
Vibrant health
Abundance
Power
Recognition
Appreciation
The perfect career

However, this puts us in the position of seeking outside of ourselves, which may temporarily feel amazing, but it’s not sustainable.

What we are truly seeking is the feeling we think those things will bring us; peace, contentment, happiness. Love.