There have been many times over the years when I have stopped to ask the question “Is there really someone there looking after me?” “Is there a God?” “Can you hear me??? Are you there?”
How many times have you gone through a difficult period only to find yourself doubting in a Higher Power and instead lamenting over the difficulties you are facing? How many times have you found yourself feeling totally disconnected and alone? How many miracles do we have to witness before we can totally trust in the Divine? How much magic must fill our lives for us to totally let go and believe? These are questions I still ask myself, even after 20 years on a spiritual path.
Then early in the summer of 2005 a miracle came into our lives in the form of a 12 week old black Labrador mix puppy named Buffy. After only a few days our playful puppy got sick, and a trip to the local vet confirmed she had parvo virus, a virus known to be deadly to puppies. The vet took her into quarantine to provide an aggressive treatment that would save her life.
After two days I went to visit Buffy and she was extremely excited to see me. And I was very excited to see that she was making such great progress. My children were so worried about her and impatient to have her come home. When I was done visiting with her and I stepped out of the quarantined area she started to howl for me. I could hear the loneliness in her crying and it broke my heart. I knew she didn’t understand what was going on, and that we had to leave her there because it was for her very highest good. So there I stood, on the other side of the door, so close to her, silently cheering her on. She didn’t know that I was just a few feet away and wanted more than anything to just rush in there and comfort her. She couldn’t understand that the wonderful veterinarian staff was providing the very best care to get her healed as soon as possible. And she’d never know just how much my children and I wanted her to return home safely. All she knew at that very moment was isolation and loneliness.
We have all experienced loneliness and the feelings of abandonment. What we don’t necessarily remember though is that right on the other side of the “door” there is someone silently cheering us on…. someone who wants us to feel comforted and who loves us dearly. We have our dreams, our intuitions and synchronicities to give us messages from the other side of that door. All we need to do is remember to trust in them.
As for Buffy, she is a very healthy and happy member of the family who enjoys teaching us lessons in patience and love.